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For a New Experience, To Explore My Sexuality, To Meet People |
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White / Caucasian |
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My Web Gifts
A gift from uname
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Sent
12/12/2012
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QN_Viper_Vixen's Scoop
About me:
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Who I'd like to meet:
Of all the people I would like to meet, right now I wish I could have just a few minutes with my loving mistress and true friend Burd.
I would let her know how much she has helped me grow and find myself in the world of BSDM.
I would tell her how much she truely meant to me and asking for her forgivness for my foolish behavior.
Sadly I though I was doing something she wanted when in reality I was doing the exact opposite (talk about being so ignorant to someone's feelings).
I assumed we had a lot of time together when in fact our time together was destined to be so brief and I squandered it.
If I had to do it all over again I would not let a waking moment or a second of my free time pass without telling her the good that she had done for me and how I would always be in her debt.
I would never let her leave my presence without telling her how important she was to me and how my heart sang when she was near.
Never would she feel alone or sad because I would be there for her.
She taught me how to love again in a deeply profound way. Something I wish I could give back to her but she left hurt and without saying goodbye to me. Something that I deserved for my foolish selfcentered attitude that never asked the questions I should have asked her.
Never saying what was in my heart for her and her alone. Foolishing thinking we had all the time in the world.
I do love you Burd, my mentor, friend, lovers, and soulmate. Where ever you are please know you are loved.
UPDATE
My dearest sister Joan and i (her brother John) talked about what she wanted me to do for her as her time was becoming shorter. joan wanted me to only change a few things on her profile which I have done for her. it was one of her requests (more like a demand) as she knew her time was near. Joan asked me to listen to her and let her friends know her thoughts and feelings as she was not able to do for herself anymore. These are only some of her thoughts taken from my notes as I took them for my sister.
One of the request she made of me was to let her friends know that she loved you all. More than anything she wanted to be with you every moment she took a breath. She loved Lexi and Sye as her wives and dearest friends, April and Burd were her queens and she loved them beyond any words can say.
Joan regretted some things she had done but she made peace with herself knowing that deep in her soul she knew the love and devotion for you all was a gift of a lifetime. From my perspective as her brother, Joan was a gift to all that knew her in life and a fearless warrior to those that crossed her.
Lexi, Joan loved you very much as a queen and mistress only could. When we were in Denver she wanted to find you and just make you smile (her words) but she fought with her soul as she knew the rules and your requirement for privacy.
She had said to me that "not visiting Lexi would be my fault as I am too rule abiding, I should just forget about rules someday and just let my heart run wild". She told me that "Lexi is my sweet and spicy love", "when we are together we are so sweet and nice but then when things get hot we can burn down the house together". While that was hard for a brother to hear i knew Joan loved Lexi in a very special way.
Sye she did love you too and worried about you every day. I would visit Joan and sometimes find her on the porch having a drink (when she still could have one) looking into space. I would ask "What are you thinking about?" and Joan would respond "worried bout Em".
Joan worried about Sye just like she worried about her kids. Sye was someone very special to Joan. Someone to protect and someone to love unconditionally again her words not mine. Joan felt connected to Sye in a way I cannot explain as Joan did not elaborate on.
One thing Joan seem to have with her was a small remote control she would keep with her always. I would ask her what was it for? Joan never answered that question, she only smiled at me and sometimes would say "thanks Em"
April Joan so loved you for so many things. Joan seemed so conflicted at times because she always wanted you to look up to her and when she felt she failed in that she was inconsolable. It was like she failed her children. In the end she knew she was loved by you and that no matter what happened in life you would always love her as you did the first time you met. She always played a song just about everyday, "Obsession" which the kids and I often told her to stop playing it but she would not and smiled always when she heard it. Joan told me that this was your song and that it made her feel wanted and happy when she heard it. Anything or anyone that made Joan smile was ok in my book.
Joan never worried about you April she never felt you needed her protection only her love and adoration as she knew you would succeed at anything you did. She once said to me that she knew a gal named April, the strongest woman alive. My response to that was how do you know that? Joan responded simply by saying some people are born strong, others are made strong by life, April gets her strength from both and continues to get stronger everyday. One day April will save the world for us all. "April deserves our thanks, love and respect".
Joan loved Burd and thanked the gods that April introduced her to Burd. Joan loved Burd unconditionally. While there was a time Joan was distracted by someone that hurt Joan so very very much (would never tell me who) which took her from Burd, my sister told me then that she would have done anything to change time and tell Burd how much she meant to her.
To quote my sister "if I did not have children to care for, I would sell everything and devote my life to pleasing Burd". I often told my sister she was crazy but in this I knew she was serious. Joan had suffered through so much in her life but when she talked about Burd she was calm and so willing to love. I have never seen her so at peace as when she though about Burd. Who ever you are Burd, you made a huge difference in my sister's life. Joan never revealed a lot about Burd to me but next to her bed there was a photo of a body with flower petals that she kept there which she told me was for you.
There are so many other friends that Joan wanted to say so many things to and about. Jenna and Crystal who she never forgets when she listened to spygirl. To Fawn when she thinks of her name (and every time Fox News logos appear)'. to Susie who loved her but never got that love returned, joan never forgot your devotion to her. And quoting my sister "my love and companion Ciara you have been gone so long where are you?" "You taught me to dance in that special way we danced and I miss you and those fun times". Seems Ciara also had a special place in her heart and Joan never elaborated on how you all danced.
While her thoughts were focused on her true loves she wanted to say thank you to everyone she met for your kindness, love, and trauma. Yes some gave her trauma (you know who you are) but she became stronger because of that trauma and learned so much about herself. It gave her the strength to talk about her loves, life, feelings, family, wishes, her illness, and so much more.
I will keep this account active for a while so you can email me if you feel the need to do so.
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More About QN_Viper_Vixen
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Interests:
Everything in excess! To enjoy the flavor of life, take big bites. Moderation is for monks.
My Favorite Websites:
www.fark.com
www.break.com
www.pornotube.com
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o7PxaGNy5RU
http://www.okcupid.com/quizzy/results?quizzyid=3910728582630298788&userid=0
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Movies:
The Day of the Triffids, Blade Runner, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, The Fifth Element, The Thing, Dark Star, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb, What Up Tiger Lily, The Green Mile, Arsenic and Old Lace
Books:
All Robert A. Heinlen books, HitchHikers Guide to the Galaxy,
Slaughterhouse Five, A Clockwork Orange, A Connecticut Yankee in KA's Court, The Time Machine
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